Monday, May 19, 2008

Kay, Sera Sera

Busy demands and unexpected challenges saturate my life this week. While I'm making art in all my free moments, well, those moments are few and far between. But I have not fallen off the face of the earth.

I feel actual PANIC when I think I won't have my wee creation ready to list on eBay or ETSY. I swear sometimes I get heart palpitations over it. I work slowly because I'm trying to do it right; waiting for things to dry properly while the whole idea and concept is percolating in my brain. While this is going on, I'm still trugging off to LA every weekday. Moorpheous(my friend who also happens to be an amazing photographer) put it perfectly today when said "Hey man, you can't sacrifice quality." Isn't that great? I love it!

Excuses, excuses.

Anyway, I had to take some time to clean out the unbelievable mess of old paperbacks (over 100!), bills, receipts, plastic bags, empty water bottles, several unmatched socks, an empty frozen TV dinner dish and an accumulation of a really unhealthy amount of dust bunnies over the past several months on my side of the bed. What I now have is a CLEAN and organized space in which to store my favorite art and reference books, sketch pad for doodling (please, I CANNOT sketch) and a coffee cup filled with Prisma pencils. It's sparce but peaceful. The whole time I was cleaning I kept thinking, why, WHY do I let it get this bad!

Yeah, I have no idea.

Then tonight I had to tackle the closet my husband and I share because we're camping this weekend and I will need to pack clothes. Simple, right? No! Again, I was thinking that I might really have a problem here. My husband, a stay-home-dad, cleans the common areas and does a good job but when it comes to one's closet, it's hard to determine what to throw away or to organize crap that's not yours. So by the time I got around to actually organizing my clothes, I was faced with a dresser piled so high, I swear it would have measured six feet. It's organized now but how long will it last, I ask myself? I think I might need to contact Dr. Phil for some intervention. My mother raised me to be clean so what happened?

So to all you packrats and people who procrastinate organization, I say to you, I UNDERSTAND there is a PSYCHOLOGY to keeping things neat and organized. If you are challenged, you are NOT alone.

Amidst all my challenges (psychological or otherwise), I AM actually working. Scout's honor.


kat449 said...

Alrighty ...wait a minute...why didnt the hubs just dive in and help prioritize some of this panic on your side of the bed? I mean when you make dinner, you dont stop and say well I dont like onions, Ill let him finish it... do ya? nah...I think youve been had on this one...Im just sayin,. although it sure is reassuring knowing someone so drop dead gorgeous like you has hoarding issues! any issues, but something.... you cant have it all girlee! you crack me up...thanks for that..have a wonderful time camping this weekend. dont forget to spit shine those flip flops for the community showers! eeewwweee, hugs, Kat

BuTT UgLee said...

Miss Deb,
I loved reading your blog entry today. i so understand. I ditto everything you said. Perfection is over rated...
jennifer jones

Designs by CK said...

Hi Deb ~ Hang in there! We've ALL been there at one point or another!

There are only SO many hours in a day.

Have a Vonderful holiday weekend.

PS: Glad you liked "BOO-Chip!" :)

Spooky CK

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vintagepaletteart said...

Awwwwwwwww.....Deb! Relax and have fun this weekend! You listen to Nana now! lol

You deserve this break!

Hugs! *Nana

Outside the Box Primitives said...

HALLELUJAH!! at least I am NOT ALONE in this cruel world!! as Kat said and said so well, "You can't have it all girlee!" but YOU have most of it!!haha.. hugs, robin
can't wait to see your next creation, they amaze me!